Jumaat, Mei 25, 2012

6th Cycle Completed


Alhamdulillah…6th Cycle of Chemotherapy completed last 2 weeks. Last Monday, Azman went for CT Scan at Prince Court Hospital untuk mengetahui status cancer-nya. Alhamdulillah again the result is so pleasing and relief. However, one of two cancer spot masih lagi ada but the size has been reduced from 2.4mm to 1.6mm. Setelah berbincang dengan Dr. Arif, beliau diberi 2 pilihan.

i)         Totally stop chemo and observation
ii)        Continue with “Avastin” drug alone for 3 cycles every 3 weeks. short procedure, 45 min to 1 hr

Dengan tidak berfikir panjang, Azman telah memilih option kedua and that means the 1st cycle will start 11 June 2012. Dr. Azrif nak bagi dia rehat dulu, kasi enjoy and free from chemo for a while.

Walaubagaimanapun aku dikejutkan sekali lagi dengan berita yang tidak begitu menyenangkan. Yesterday my cousin sister called, her daughter also kira my niece was diagnosed with breast cancer. She’s early 30’s and knew it quite sometime tapi rahsiakan from husband and family until her breast membengkat macam batu dan tak tertanggung lagi bebannya. I do not understand what is in her mind. Now she’s admitted in Hospital Besar Kelantan waiting for surgery. Nothing much that I can do at this moment except pray that she will get well and be strong.

LV MH

Khamis, Mei 24, 2012

Jauh Perjalanan Luas Pandangan


Does anyone know this Perpatah Melayu? “Jauh Perjalan, Luas Pengalaman” How true it is? For me, it has very deep meaning and certainly true. Not all were lucky to get the opportunity. Therefore I’m very grateful to ALLAH to be able to enjoy it.

Almost 90% of Malaysia's people like to travel. Either Cuti-Cuti Malaysia  or ke luar negara. Each time when there are public holidays, people will take this opportunity to go travel/holiday with family or friends. As Malaysians, we are lucky to have many public holidays. It is not surprising that the Ministry of Tourism Malaysia has launched the Cuti-Cuti Malaysia. There are many interesting places in Malaysia can be visited. Now with low-cost aircraft (Airasia) some way help the people of Malaysia to fly much further but of course planning ahead is very important otherwise the price is not that cheap. 

With the existence of low-cost aircraft, I had the opportunity to travel oversea with less cost, coincide with their slogan “Everybody Can Fly”. I can say I'm really fortunate because at early age almost all states in Malaysia I have been visited. My Arwah Abah love to travel and every time when school holiday he will bring us whole family “Jalan jalan makan angin”. Often we will stay with relatives.

Beside “Jalan-jalan makan angin” or “Cuti-cuti Malaysia” first country I’ve visited was Japan in year 1990. At that time I just completed my form 5. Coincidentally my cousin sister worked there. We are very close and she suggested or I can say she sponsored me lah for a vacation there for 2 months....lama tu. At that time she was expecting her second baby and not really well. In the presence of me a little bit more ease her burden. When I was there, my cousin sister has brought me to visit many places such as Disneyland, Mount Fuji, Harajuku Street and many more especially Theme Park. In Japan there are a lot of nice and enjoyable Theme Park. One thing that will never be forgotten, during my stay I gain weight...hahaha a lot! Japanese food is really marvelous and apparently my cousin brother, he’s a good cook. Funny part was my parent doesn’t even recognize me bila balik Malaysia....gemukkksss

Second country I have visited is Thailand (Phuket) in year 1997. If not mistaken end of the year because I have just gave birth to Nurin and she was 4 months at that time. Actually, it was my husband “Company Trip”. 

In 1998 I had the opportunity to go to China (Shanghai). The trip was organized by Microsoft. I have won a holiday ticket with 2 more colleagues for successfully sell Microsoft's (Achieve Quota). Overall there are 30 people in our group. Shanghai City was so modern and beautiful. We got the opportunity to visit tea farm, fresh water pearl factory and their culture village.

In year 2004, my best friend asked me to accompany her to Vietnam (Ho Chi Min).  Tidak lepas peluang, ikutttt.... she’s doing part time business by taking goods from there. When you are in Ho Chin Min, must go place is definitely Ben Thanh Market. It is a large marketplace in the downtown area of Ho Chi Min City. You can find almost anything here, from shoes to clothes to bags, to candies, flowers, fruits and one thing you have to know bargain are hard and some negotiating skills are necessary. I can say this is a right place for shopaholic.

For the first time I went to Indonesia (Bandung) in year 2006. The most memorable trip. I’m not only with my family but also my bff and their families, 22 of us including my Mak and Kak Yati. We charter a large bus. It is true what people say, Bandung is a City of shopping...heavenly. Besides shopping we went to Puncak, situated between Bandung and Jakarta.  This is where Safari the “Asian African” located. The kids was so happy, they can see many animals. We also do not miss the chance to see Anglung Mat Udjo show. Since then I will at least twice a year make a visit to Bandung or Jakarta. Really fall in love with the city and especially the food. Jakarta and Bandung now is just like my second home.

 The girls having so much fun in Kidzania , Jakarta

KLIA Airport on the way to Jakarta with Sister & Cousin

January 2010, I have my trip (Bag pack) to Europe. Initially on this trip I would go with Azman and 2 more friends. However, eight months before departure, Azman has been diagnosed with cancer. The date that we supposed to go, Azman was half way under Chemotherapy which not allowed him to travel. However, he does not prevent me from continuing the trip. At first of course I felt guilty and sad to leave him but this opportunity really cannot be rejected. Furthermore the air ticket already purchased. 


 Me -Venice

We began our trip from KL-London-Italy (Rome / Florence / Bergamo / Milan)-Venice-Austria-Switzerland-Paris and back to London. Of course this experience is extremely beautiful. At that time was winter and for the first time I saw snow in Austria....speechless.

 Me - Lake Como, Milan

End of 2010, Azman completed his 2nd time Chemotherapy due to cancer relapse at his lung & bladder. We decided to go for holiday and this time our destination is Bali. We stayed at the hotel near Kuta. I think I have made a mistake by chosen hotel near there. This area is a prime and busy place. If there are other opportunities, Seminyak will be in my list. Bali is a nice place. Highly recommended for newlywed for their honeymoon.

 Me, Sister & Aina - Bali

This year is a tough year for my kids. Aina will seat for her PMR exam this coming September and Asna her UPSR exam in August. So we decided to go for “Cuti-cuti Malaysia” saja. Last school holiday, we went to Kuantan and stayed in Hyatt for 3 days. 
 
Tough year for the kids but NOT me hehehehe...I had my ME TIME with cousin and sister in Bangkok, February 2012. We spend 3 days 2 nights there. We do not have the chance to go for massage since this is our first time and really not sure where is the best place. Honestly I do not really like Bangkok except for their silk. However, that's not important the most important is when you are accompanied by the people you love.

 With Sister & Counsin - Silk Shop, Bangkok

July 2012, my maid is going back to Bandung for 2 months….yeyyy that’s mean I’m going to Bandung too. Since Aidil Fitri is in August, I can take this opportunity.... shopping!!!!

 With Sister & Hendry (Indonesian Friend) - In front of President Residence, Jakarta


“The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page 
– St. Augustine”

Love MH

Selasa, Mei 15, 2012

Go Green Project


Don’t know why recently I’m really into this green (gardening). It’s always my dream to have a green backyard with all sorts of herbal & vegetable plants. Maybe because I used to watch Jamie's Oliver shows, River Cottage and others in AFC channel. Very excited to see each recipe that is cooked is from their owned gardens. Yesterday I was talking to my hubby about Hydroponic plants. I think it’s a good idea due to our limited area.

Last week I saw one of my friend posted this picture in his FB.  Terkesima rasanya …….love it so much and immediately showed hubby. Since he’s good in carpentry *ngehh* mintak tolong kasi bikin satu heheheh.




Yes, it’s going to be my next project…..


My list of herbal and vegetables to be planted

Tomato, Red Chili, Eggplant, Lemongrass, Pandan Leave, Lemon, Thyme, Oregano, Pengaga, Ginger, Potato, Kaffir Lime Leaves...isshhh banyak lah.

Love MH

Jumaat, Mei 11, 2012

Love Song by Adele


Adele had first heard this song at her first concert ever, which happened to be The Cure.  Adele said the song was very touching, and when she had been in Malibu, she had become homesick, and decided to perform a cover of the song to help. Adele found comfort in her friends and family, specifically her mother, whom she dedicated the song to, to help with the homesickness. Her cover of the song received generally positive reviews, as well. She said performing the song had set her free in a way. Adele had gone into the recording studio to perform the song, although she had lost her voice. She performed the song anyways, which had given it a beautiful element and a very special sentimental value. It also brought the entire production team to tears.

Coincide with Mother Days on Sunday 13 May 2012, I would like to take this opportunity to dedicate this song to my “Mak” and all mothers out there. I love you…..

 Mak & her cucus



Long Song

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

[Chorus:]
However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you

[Verse 2:]
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

[Chorus:]
However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you

However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you

I'll always love you
I'll always love you
Cause I love you

Rabu, Mei 09, 2012

6th Cycle


Monday 7 May 2012 - Chemotherapy, cycle # 6. Alhamdulillah, the recovery progress last week looks ok than a week before. Perhaps because he’s taking it positively and well prepared mental and physical. 

Heavy rain started as early as 2 am. As expected, KL traffic was really bad and we arrived hospital quite late. However, the admission procedure does not take a long time. 4H Room  #6.....wallaaa someone is happy today, the room is facing KLCC again. After breakfast, we went to Oncology Department at level 3. As usual, before the procedure, blood and urine test have to be done first. Not a good day, the vein in his right hand swollen because 3 times in a row before has been using the same hand. This is because his left arm began to swell earlier after his 2nd cycle of chemo.

A few times the nurse tried to insert the needle but failed to get the right vein. I can see from his face, it is really painful but of course he got to tahan la.....be macho man. Even the nurse also dah start stress and finally one of the nurses from scanning department came to give a hand and managed to get the needle inserted at his left hand.

Due to heavy rain that morning and traffic jam, most of patients came late for their chemotherapy appointment.  All nurses were sebuk-sebuk in Azman’s room.....biasa la Pak Lawak datang. It’s really a good start on Monday morning for them because I brought Oreo Blueberry Cheese Cake which I made earlier on Sunday night. Cik Faridah was so excited to  try baking the cake and keep asking me the recipe....*ngehh*

Dr. Azrif also was there and told us Azman's CT scan was already scheduled on 19 May. Possibility the cancer shrink or maybe totally not there anymore, Insyaallah. He suggested as maintenance, Azman just need to take Avastin alone probably 2 times a month and depending on the CT scan result. He also mentioned that the chemo port need to be taken out and will inform us the date since he need to discuss with Dr. Harjit Kaur (Breast And Endocrine Surgery Services)


Azman & Dr. Azrif

That morning I’m late to work, 11.30 off to office. At that moment I’m just praying the blood test result was ok and Azman able to continue with his chemo. Alhamdulillah after 1 one hour the result came out positively. This week Azman was given “EMEND” by Dr. Azrif. Its function to prevent acute, delayed nausea and vomiting.



I would like to thanks Dr Arif & team for their excellent care given, friendly, supportive, kindness and professional. You guys are the best!


Love from MH

Khamis, April 26, 2012

5th Cycle


Alhamdulillah 5th Cycle of Chemo completed last Wednesday after 3 days hospitalized in Prince Court. Next chemo will be on 7 May 2012. Pray that this is going to be his last chemo…I want my healthy husband back. 

Throughout the procedure, my children do not have the opportunity to visit him in the hospital. However, last Tuesday I decided to take leave. The kids went to morning school and later afternoon after lunch I bring them to visit Azman. Iskandar was so excited and thought that Prince Court is a hotel….so funny.

 My lovely family

Bye Ayah...we all balik dulu. C u at home. Get well soon

You are my strength. I love u!


"Sometimes we have to accept the pain. Must get in touch with the situation. Some people deny their hardship, thinking that if they don't face them, they will be happier....but it's the other"

Love - MH

Selasa, April 17, 2012

I Will Always Love You

As usual, before starting my work normally i will go to youtube and cari-cari lagu to listen while doing my work. Suddenly teringat pada  Pasha from Unggu, the famous Indonesian Band. Found this song, for the first time....omg i really fall in love. 

Dedicate this song to my Dearest......enjoy!



I will always love you kekasihku
Dalam hidupku hanya dirimu satu
I will always need you cintaku
Selamanya takkan pernah terganti
Ku mau menjadi yang terakhir untukmu
Ku mau menjadi mimpi indahmu
 
Cintai aku dengan hatimu
Seperti aku mencintaimu
Sayangi aku dengan kasihmu
Seperti aku menyayangimu

I will be the last for you
And you will be the last for me
I will always love you kekasihku
Dalam hidupku hanya dirimu satu 

Ku mau menjadi yang terakhir untukmu
Ku mau menjadi mimpi indahmu
Cintai aku dengan hatimu
Seperti aku mencintaimu
Sayangi aku dengan kasihmu
Seperti aku menyayangimu

I will be the last for you
And you will be the last for me
I will be the last for you
And you will be the last for me

Love MH